Make Hay

 

This summer I took two courses.  Math and Business Ethics.

I felt drained mentally.  The last 8 weeks went by like a slow-motion blink.

I had joy.  Good things happened, but it just felt exhausting.

One positive thing that occurred was my involvement with my new church.

It’s in its infancy stages and everything is new and exciting.  The people, the passion, and the mission.  It has rekindled faith and promise in me that had solidified on a back burner somewhere.

This week I was inspired to write.  I wrote a song.  I wrote two poems.  I wrote a presentation for a motivational speech I will soon deliver. I returned to my blog.

The irony about taking Math and Business Ethics is that I really do know math conceptually, and I do have ethics, figuratively.  However, after fundamental applications were required in the processing of both math and ethics, I was struggling.

Literally struggling.  Things are not as simple as solving for X.  They should be.  Sometimes there are multiple variables and exponents creating multiple solutions.  Sometimes there are solutions sets, and you literally have to find out where on the cartesian plane you are supposed to be.  Are you even on the (x,y) or are you in another dimension?

It was the ethics that unnerved me. Hindsight is 20/20.  Its always easy for people to look back and say this or that was clear cut wrong.  While people are navigating the lessor of evils in real time with high stakes pressure from investors  it’s not always so black and white.  Everyone has a different set of priorities.  Meeting people in the middle for the common good and least harm does not always look the same.  The unnerving part is that ethical outcomes can look a lot like darn if you do, and “darner” if you don’t.

A late friend of mine used to joke about being morally compromised.  This entire semester I laughed and thought about him. I’ve reflected on so many times in my life where I didn’t need to apply morals, where were my ethics?  I call this common sense.  That is the problem.  Its not common.  I’ve learned in my life that I must be intentional and forward thinking. A question I ask myself often is what if it goes completely wrong?  What if it goes perfectly right?

Maybe the reality is that in this new season of my life, I’m able to apply true wisdom to my choices and decisions with great intention.  I’m leaning into my faith a little more every day. I’m believing in the girl inside me that thinks all things are possible, but knowing I don’t have to do all things. One day at a time filled with my best is good. 

There are currently no stamps on my passport.

There less sexy nights and candlelight.

There is financial stability, security, and joy that I’m working diligently to secure for generations to come.  During this season, I’ll enjoy my home and my yard.  Healthier food selections, and all the naps I can secure.

 By the grace of God, I’ll pass  both my math and ethics classes filled with metaphors and analogies for years to come. Somewhere over the rainbow, it will be worth it all.

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